Fluteboy

Spaced out

8:33 pm : Tuesday, 15 August 2006  |  ,


A couple of months ago, I went to see my doctor about my depression. On that first visit, I asked him if it would be beneficial for me to take the herbal supplement St. John's Wort. He agreed that it would probably benefit me. Today, I bought some. And having taken my first dose, I can honestly say I feel zonked. My movements have been slower and clumsier, but at least I am not crying or ranting.

I know any kind of remedy for depression or anxiety is not supposed to provide true relief until about 4-6 weeks of regular use, but it has done something for me. And I also know that such a remedy, herbal or otherwise, will probably have an initial over-effect, but I have to say I appreciate this zonked-out feeling. I'm too wasted to feel low. I also seem to be typing with fewer mistakes!

It would seem to me that, despite seeking help for my illness, I am ultimately required to help myself in the end.