Fluteboy

We're getting there!

8:15 pm : Wednesday, 30 August 2006  |  ,


Today I visited my doctor, and at long last, things appear to be starting to go some place. Considering I have been placed on an eight month waiting list for some web-based CBT course, the doctor decided to refer me to an actual CBT course at Edgware hospital. There will be a three month waiting list for this. Slightly concerning, but I am not so worried as I have now been prescribed actual medication.

It's official now - I am on medication. Well I will be in a week, once I have slowly taken myself of the St. John's Wort. There's a box of Citalopram sat in front of me, and I pray that it will help me to return to the slightly saner person I was before.

I started taking the St. John's Wort a fortnight ago, with the first dose rendering me truly zonked! And for an off-the-shelf supplement, it has certainly helped to steady me. There has been a lot less crying, for a start! I did cry last Wednesday following the assessment for the web-based CBT course. I attended this at the Royal Free hospital in Hampstead. It was a pleasant enough affair, yet once outdoors, I felt doom-laden, and had to sit on a bench and pour some out. Funny what 'getting help' does to you.

For those that don't know, Citalopram is in the same class as Prozac and Paxil/Seroxat. There appear to be fewer horror stories about Citalopram, so I am slightly reassured there. Here's to rebuilding my sanity.