A revelation
Wednesday 2 June 2004 - 5:14 pm
depression, health, karaoke, video
I eventually chose to sing Good Souls by Starsailor, because it just seemed to be more appropriate. Thank goodness for the good souls who make life better.
As for the "anniversary", it occurred to me that night, "What's the point? It's not positive, so what's the point?" The topic faded from my mind quickly. Then a revelation - In the men's room, I looked in the mirror and saw someone who looked like he was about to explode. Maybe it's because I caught the sun, and have a nice red face and scalp, but the face said it all. More lines on my forehead than British Telecom. Enough was enough.
My eating habits are poor to say the least, my exercise is poor also, my health is suffering. An unhealthy body obviously spurs on an unhealthy mind. Am I right there? The last year and a half has been a mere existence for me. I've let myself go. I need to regain some grip. It may just be the tonic.
I'm going to be my own best friend from now on. There will be no more self torture. DO YOU ALL HEAR ME? I'm gonna love me. F*ck what everyone else thinks of me. Don't like my views? Then go to hell! I exist. Get used to it! I matter. Happiness, here I come.
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